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Anything that is separable from consciousness is an object of
consciousness. Now, this separability may be merely notional; it may not be
factual. Whether it is an imaginary concept of difference or a factual
distinction that is there, as long as the mind or consciousness cannot accept
its unity with that particular context or thing, it remains as an object. In
meditation, the consciousness is enabled not by exertion of any force from
outside, but by an education introduced into it from within to effloresce into
a wider comprehension of facts wherein its notion of objects gets changed and
transformed.
It is not that things actually change in meditation, but our idea of
objects changes. To give a common example, we have the phenomenon of the
difference that we make between dream objects and waking experience. The
objects in dream are totally disconnected from the perceiving subject. We are
the dreamers and we do not know that we are such, while we are actually
dreaming. The question of dream does not arise when we are actually in that
condition. It is as good an experience as anything else. The things that we see
in dream are disconnected from us and, therefore, we have pleasures and pains
in dream, also.
There are all kinds of things in dream as we have in waking life. There
are hills and dales, persons and things, experiences that are pleasurable and
miserable. All these objects of the dream world causing pleasures or pains are
disconnected from that particular degree of consciousness which experiences
them; and that is the reason why there is pleasure or pain. Pleasures and pains
are caused by reactions set up between the subjective consciousness and its
relation to the object concerned. When we wake up from dream, what happens? The
objects which we saw in dream, which were the causes of our pleasures and
pains, have vanished altogether. Since they have vanished, the pleasures and
pains connected with the objects also have gone. Where have these objects gone?
Where have they vanished into?
The objects in dream, which caused us pleasures and pains, were notionally
distinguishable from the experiencing consciousness, but factually not. This is
known by us when we wake up from dream. The tiger that pounced upon us in dream
was not really outside us. It was a particular modification of our own mind
which concocted a spatial and temporal difference between itself and the
content called the tiger, or whatever it is, and the pleasures and pains were
due to the space and time difference between the experiencing consciousness and
the object. If the dream-space or dream-time were not to be there, we could
have no pleasures and pains there. The cessation of pleasures and pains in
waking, after the dream, is entirely due to the cessation of the space and time
which operated in dream. When the dream-space-time has gone, the dream-objects
also have gone. Earlier, we have noted that space-time and objects go together.
We also observed the hint from the discoveries of modern physics wherein
science has come to the conclusion that objects in the world are
indistinguishable from what we call space and time. They are rather
configurations of space-time themselves. There are no objects. There is only
space-time.
By the dream analogy, we come to the awareness that objects may appear to
be outside us and cause us pleasures and pains even though they are really not
so. We may have a large fortune in dream and we may feel very happy. We may
earn a million dollars in dream by lottery. We may fall from a tree in a dream
and break our legs and feel pain. But what are these experiences? They are
nothing but the effects of space and time in which we are involved. Our
dream-consciousness has got involved in the notion of the difference between
itself and the space-time in which it is perceiving the objects.
When we wake up, what happens? The space, time and objects of dream get
absorbed into our own minds. A so-called objective world of dream gets
assimilated into the mind which is now awake, which contains within itself all
the factors that went to constitute the dream experiencer as well as the dream
objects. This analogy will give us an idea of what is going to take place in
meditation. If we are consciously to wake up from dream, i.e., if we are aware
of the very process of getting up from dream into the world of waking
experience, if we are going to be aware of the involvement as well as the
disentanglement, that would be the series of processes through which we have to
pass in yoga meditation.
Instead of getting suddenly stirred up into waking by some phenomenon of
which we have no knowledge, as it happens usually, if we are to be aware of
every step and every stage of the working of the psyche by which it wakes up
from dream, that would be a sort of analogy which can explain the process of
meditation. And the comparison is this much: when we wake up, the objects of
dream get absorbed into our minds and that is why they do not cause us pleasure
and pain and they do not bother us afterwards. Because, they do not exist at
all. They are 'we'. The objects of dream, and the space and time of dream have
become what we are. The object has become the subject. Hence, there is no
pleasure, no pain in connection with the things that we saw in dream. Now, this
so-called 'we', which has absorbed into itself the whole of the dream
phenomena, should be regarded as inclusive of both the subject and the object
of dream; we had reduced ourselves into the dream-experiencer and separated a
part of ourselves into the objects in the dream-space-time. And when we wake
up, they get withdrawn. This process of withdrawal is like the process of yoga.
In yoga, the process is a conscious and deliberate one. It is not an
unconscious occurrence or a sudden kick that we receive from somewhere. We are
enabling the mind to educate itself into the true situation of things. The
world outside us is connected with us in the same way as the objects of dream
are connected with the dream-experiencer. The buildings that we see outside, in
which we are seated, are all connected with us, even as the dream-room or the
dream-buildings are connected with the dream-experience. These analogies can
explain themselves.
The connection in dream was inseparable because the things were not really
outside. This reference will also explain why meditation should not be
considered as an activity or a business that we perform. It is not a job that
we are hunting after, so that we may get tired of it. Meditation should become
a source of satisfaction and relief from tension rather than a source of
exhaustion and fatigue. The more we become ourselves, the more are we free from
tension. A tension is an alienation of oneself into something other than oneself.
There is an unnatural distinction drawn within the function of our own psyche,
a pressure exerted upon it by conditions over which it has no control and which
it somehow regards as outside itself.
The withdrawal that we speak of in yoga practice is not a painful
activity. It is not to be considered an activity at all. It is the regaining of
the health of consciousness from the diseased state in which it is in its
individualised state. If we can consider dream as an unfortunate nightmare and
not a healthy state of the mind, then this objective world-experience can also
not be regarded as a spiritually healthy state. That is why the sage Patanjali
regards all perceptions as unnecessary activities of the mind in respect of
things with which it should not concern itself. They are vrittis,
obstacles to be overcome. In the subjugation of the vritti, or vrittis-nirodha, in yoga, every notion of objects gets transformed into a higher
subjectivity. Here we have to underline the word higher subjectivity. It
is not the empirical subjectivity we know.
The consciousness of waking is a subjectivity which is higher in dimension
than the subjectivity of dream. That is why we are more free in waking than in
dream. Otherwise, we would be sorry that we have woken up from sleep. We do not
so feel, but are rather relieved that the nightmare has gone, the bugbear is no
more, because the waking consciousness is a larger dimension of comprehension
than the one in which we were as dream experiencers. So, to withdraw ourselves from
objective consciousness into the subjectivity we are speaking of here does not
mean an introversion in the sense of the Freudian or the Jungian psychology and
psychoanalysis. We hear of extroverts and introverts, a distinction drawn by
Jung in his analytical psychology. We are not talking of this kind of
introversion.
Many times, people consider yogis as introverts. It is a bad name like the
one we give to the dog in order to hang it. The yogis are not introverts in the
psychological sense. We may call them introverts in the same sense as we have
become introverts now after waking up from dream. It is a metaphysical
inwardisation of being. We introvert in this particular sense as the objects of
the dream-world go into our subjectivity in waking. But, then, we do not say
that we are in a morbid state when we are awake. The psychological introversion
is a partial expression of the mind towards itself, bifurcating itself from
extrovert activities. Jung advocates a blend of the extrovert and the introvert.
Any kind of overemphasis on one side is supposed to bring a psycho-pathological
condition. Yoga is far removed from it.
We have great psycho-analytic teachers like Patanjali, but their teaching
is quite different. While it is true that meditation in its higher reaches is
an attempt at self-withdrawal, it is not a withdrawal into this cocoon of our
individual personality. yoga is a healthy remedy that is prescribed for the
illness in which the mind finds itself by alienating itself into the false
notion of an outsideness of objects, which is not really there. The pratyahara spoken of in the yoga system, the withdrawal of the senses from the objects,
does not mean a cutting oneself off from the realities of things. If this wrong
idea persists in the mind, one has to be unhappy in meditation. The mind will
say, "When will this meditation be over? I shall get up and go for a walk."
This, because we feel that going for a walk will be an entry into the reality
of things from which we have withdrawn ourselves unnaturally in meditation.
The mind has a notion that, after all, the reality is outside. "I have
forcefully severed myself from reality in the meditation hall, so I want to get
up from this place as early as possible." This is a sorry state of affairs.
Meditation is not a withdrawal from reality, even as waking from dream is not a
waking from reality into some unreality. One knows very well that waking is a
greater reality than dream, and the subjectivity into which the objective
consciousness withdraws itself in meditation is not the individual subject of a
Mr. or a Mrs., a Tom, Dick, or Harry. Here what is considered is a larger
subject which includes our present idea of a subject in ourselves and the
objects outside, in the same way as the dream-subject and the dream-objects get
both subsumed in the waking subject. Even when we listen to it and hear that
this is going to be the true achievement in meditation, the mind will jump into
it as if it is going to enter into a river of nectar. "Oh! It is this! I am going
to become a larger being in meditation than what I am today, just now! I will
be more vitally connected with all things than I know now!" If the mind is
convinced by an educational process, in the yoga sense of the term, it will not
open its mouth afterwards.
You will forget your breakfast and lunch and dinner, you will be weeping, "When
will I enter into this state?" rather than feel, "When will this meditation
cease?" People have a wrong notion about meditation, about yoga, and about God
Himself, an erroneous idea about themselves and their relationship with things.
Before we enter into any serious attempt at meditation we have to clear our
minds of all the cobwebs and the dirt and the rubbish of sentiments and
prejudices which have been thrust into us by the social conditions into which
we are born and remake ourselves for the purpose of the practice.
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