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You are involved not merely in human society; you are also involved in
nature. The five elements - earth, water, fire, air and ether - constitute
your physical body. Do you know that they are outside you? Yes, they are
outside you; you are seeing them. You see the earth outside you; water
is there, fire is there, air is there, the sky is there. All these five
elements appear to be totally outside, but you forget that your very body
is made up of these five elements. The building bricks of your personality
are the very things of which the world outside is made. So, do you know
you are involved in the five elements? Your involvement is not merely in
your neighbour, in society - but vitally, in nature.
'Involvement' is a peculiar word which has many connotations. You may be
very pleasantly or unpleasantly involved in a thing. When consciousness
is pleasantly involved in your body, you appear to be a very healthy person.
When you say you are very healthy and robust, you mean to say that the
prana, the vitality, the consciousness itself is very harmoniously involved
in this bodily individuality, though it is also an involvement. But when
it is unpleasantly involved, you feel odd, you are sick and you would like
to go to bed. Hence, involvements may be of different kinds: necessary
or unnecessary, pleasant or unpleasant, right or wrong. When the right
involvement is resorted to, it automatically becomes pleasant. It is only
wrong involvements that seem unpleasant. Therefore, with society outside,
with the people around you, with nature, you have to conduct yourself in
a harmonious manner - specifically, by practising the yamas, niyamas, asana
postures and other things mentioned in the yoga system.
Never be in a hurry in the practice of yoga. Take only one step if it becomes
necessary; do not try to make a hurried movement. If today you are capable
of taking only one step, that is good enough. It is better to take only
one step, but a firm step, rather than many steps which may have to be
later retraced due to some errors that you have committed. Quality is important,
not quantity. Many days of meditation do not mean much; it is the kind
of meditation that you have been practising, and the quality, that is involved
there.
Here, the Upanishads, or the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali, or the Bhagavadgita - all
are telling you, finally, one and the same thing: "To thine own self be
true," as the poet has very rightly said. The whole of yoga can be said
to be equanimous with this implication of the poet's words: "To thine own
self be true." Are you true to yourself? Svastha - a person who is svastha
is a person who is healthy. If you are in yourself, you are healthy; if
you are not in yourself, you are not healthy. The word 'svasthya' in Sanskrit,
or even in Hindi, comes from the word 'svastha' - one who is established
in one's own self. 'Swa' means one's own self; 'stha' means establishment.
Are you svastha? Generally we enquire: "Are you healthy, fine?" But the
real meaning is: "Are you in yourself or outside yourself?"
Yoga is nothing but yourself being yourself. It is not a very complicated
thing; it is easy to understand. You have to be what you are. But mostly
we find it difficult to be what we are; we are other than what we are, on
account of the involvement of our consciousness not in what we are, but
in what appears to be what we are through the sense organs. All our affections
are misdirected because the senses tell us that we are that which we love.
All people who hug things and love things wrongly imagine that they have
gone into that thing which they hug or love, forgetting that they have
lost themselves, in some percentage, in that act of movement of their consciousness
to that which they consider as themselves. All sensory activity and mental
operation in terms of sensory activity is an aberration of consciousness;
it is un-yoga, non-yoga, anti-yoga, whatever one may call it.
Hence, a daily prescription has to be adopted by one's own self. I am not
asking you all to become yogis, but to be sensible persons, good human
beings, successful in your careers, friends of humanity and satisfied in
your own self. Let that, at least, be achieved first, before trying to
reach God or attain Self-realisation. It will take care of itself. Unless
you are friendly with what you see, how will you be friendly with what
you do not see? You are at loggerheads with people, in conflict with nature
and dissonant in your own personality, psychologically, and you want to
be in harmony with God Almighty! Is it possible? Psychological alignment
within, social harmony outside and natural adaptation with creation as
a whole form part and parcel of yoga. Psychologically, are you aligned?
Do your understanding and feeling go together, or do you understand something
and feel another thing? Are you brooding over something about the past
which is not capable of accommodation with your present existence? Are
you grieved in any manner whatsoever?
The four facets of your psyche - manas, buddhi, ahamkara and chitta - have
to be blended together into a single act of mentation. It is not that you
think something, remember something else, brood over another thing and
are conscious of another thing at the present moment. Otherwise, you will
be a dichotomised personality, a split individual, a psychotic or schizophrenic;
it may lead to that. People are suffering intensely: they cannot sleep;
they cannot eat; they cannot speak one word with people with satisfaction
inside on account of a split personality - the need that they feel every
day to put on some kind of contour in their daily outer existence while
being another thing inside. You are one thing in your house and another
thing in your office. This kind of gulf that you have created within yourself - between
your inner personality and your outer personality - will tell upon you to
such an extent that you will never be integrated; you will not be what
is called a gentleman. A gentleman is an integrated person. You feel attracted
towards that individual. He is a whole and he does not have any kind of
split between his inner feelings and the outer conduct. He is able to adapt
his outer conduct to his inner feelings, and vice versa.
So, first and foremost, each student has to find out, by a probe into his
own self, whether there is any kind of psychological conflict. Do you
want something and you are unable to get it? Some years back, were you
brooding over something that you wanted and did not get? Do you have
a submerged memory of that which has caused you frustration? "Oh, I wanted
it when I was a little child, but my mother did not give it." A small thing
that your mother did not give when you were a little baby can harass you
till your death unless you have been able to refurbish your personality
and overcome that little trouble that is in your mind. The earlier days
of your life determine your later days. The kind of life that you lived
when you were a little child in a family, with your father and mother,
will have a direct impact upon you when you are an elderly person. It is
not that you can forget it completely. Even the breast milk of the mother
will tell upon you; it is not unimportant. The first twenty-five years
of your life, at least, should be well-guarded. How did you live
for the first twenty-five years, tell me? That will take care of you for
the rest of your life. If you lived a broken life, a dissipated life, a
distracted life, a frustrated life during the first twenty-five years,
then you will feel broody and suffer for the rest of your life. You will
become weak physically. If you have guarded your personality well and strengthened
your individuality, led a very disciplined life of a student for the first
twenty-five years, you will live a long life, you will be a healthy person,
you can walk a long distance, and it is unlikely that you will fall sick
so easily.
Therefore, I am mentioning to you as a precaution, as you are all students,
that it is necessary for you to guard yourself psychologically and never
brood and think over things that are past - dead and gone. Of course, many
a time we have certain difficulties with memories of the past, with which
we have to be very well accommodated in some way or the other. They have
to be put an end to, in some way or the other. If you want something and
you feel that it is necessary to have it and you have the means to have
it, then have it - no problem. But there are cases where you cannot get all
the things that you want. These are the frustrations. Some person may have
died and you cannot get that person back. Many people come to this ashram:
their mother died, father died, son died, the only child died in an accident
and the mother stopped speaking. She cannot open her mouth. The only child
has been crushed in an accident: "I cannot live, I cannot speak; everything
is finished." There is a complete blockage of the personality. How will
you handle these things?
It is not that we should wait for problems to arise and then try to solve
them. As far as possible, we should see that unnecessary psychological
problems do not arise. These are problems that arise on account of attachments
and aversions, intense liking and intense hatred for certain things. They
are embedded in the human personality, and they cannot go. As long as you
are a pure subject, cut off from the objective world outside, love and
hate are unavoidable. But you are a yoga student, you are a spiritual seeker
yearning for God and, therefore, it is no use merely living a humdrum life
like an ordinary man of the street. A greater discipline is called for.
Again I repeat, if any one of you has got internal tensions, frustrations
of any kind caused by not having what you wanted or having what you do
not want, either way, you have to handle the situation before you take
to japa, meditation or any such thing. Otherwise, it will be like a thorn
in your foot and you will never have peace as long as the thorn is there,
whatever is the diet that you eat. You have very good meals every day,
everything is fine, but the thorn in your foot will not give you peace.
It has to be removed. Whatever be the finery and the beauty of your life,
a little canker will upset the whole thing. Harmony is yoga: samatvam yoga
uchyate (Gita 2.48). What kind of harmony? Harmony with yourself, first.
This is the meaning of the saying: "To thine own self be true." Are you
one thing outside and another thing inside? Are you happy? Can you smile
with people? There are people who cannot smile; they close their mouths
and live like persons who have lost everything in the world. Even a few
words cannot come out of their mouths. Very few people can smile. A laughter
a day keeps the doctor away, and also keeps many problems away. Why don't
you smile? Why don't you be happy? Why don't you be happy with people, be
accommodative? Let people be your friends; don't consider any person as
your enemy. "He is an idiot. I will finish him." You should not think like
that. There is no idiot in this world. You are the idiot, really speaking,
so why should you condemn other people?
Hence, psychologically guarding oneself is very important in the primary
stage, which is comprehended within the yamas and niyamas of Patanjali's
Yoga Sutras. Afterwards, the greater advance starts with the meditational
process, which takes into consideration the cosmic structure of things
and the Creator of the universe. When you get up in the morning, what do
you think first? In your diary, make a note of it. "What did I think, as
the first thought, when I woke up in the morning today?" This will give
you some indication as to what kind of person you are. What was the first
thought that arose in your mind today when you got up from bed? Make a
note of it, and tomorrow morning make another note. "Yesterday, when I
went to bed, what was the last thought?" What is the first thought in the
morning and, also, what is the last thought in the evening? These entries
may be made in your diary every day. For one month continuously keep a
note of what it is that you thought first thing in the morning and what
is that you thought last thing in the evening. Then, to that extent, you
can gauge the depth of your personality.
Spend some time by yourself. Be alone to yourself, at least for one hour.
Don't be busy always. Can you be alone to yourself for one hour every day?
Many of you can be alone to yourselves for several hours, unless of course
you are engaged in some business or some official engagement. Nevertheless,
a practice has to be started. At least for one hour every day you will
not see anybody and will not lift the telephones. You will not talk; you
are literally alone to yourself. What is it that you are thinking during
that one hour? Make a note of that also. I already mentioned two things:
the first thought in the morning and the last thought in the evening. Now
I am telling you: what is it that you are thinking during that one hour
when you are totally alone? How many thoughts arise? Make a list of these
thoughts also. Let them be twenty thoughts, thirty thoughts, fifty thoughts;
every day make an attempt to keep track of the thoughts that arise in the
mind when you are alone for one hour. You will find the thoughts will diminish
gradually, because you are watching. Thieves are not very likely to lurk
when policemen are everywhere. Similarly, your watch over the thoughts
is like a police action that you are taking against the thoughts, so they
will not arise too much. Go on doing this for one month: the first thought
in the morning, the last thought in the evening, and what you think for
one hour when you are alone to yourself. This will check the unnecessary
meandering and the movement of thought and you will learn the art of self-control, gradually.
The actual practice consists of many steps that you may take according
to your own predilection. These are the yogas, as they are called. If you
want to remember something noble, you have to take its name. Business people
say "gold, gold, silver, silver, dollar, dollar, pound, pound, what is
the conversion rate, how much?" This is the god for business people; they
go on taking the names of that. "How many rupees? How many dollars? What
is the dollar value?" The whole day, this is their only thought. When you
take the name of a thing, it has an impact upon you. Anything that is noble
can also be accommodated in your personality by taking its name. Suppose
you want to think of some person; you take the name of that person. Like
that, you can take the name or formula of something which you want to remember;
that is your meditation. Abstract thinking is of course good, but it is
difficult. If you take the name of a thing, the idea of that thing also
arises automatically. The name and the form are so intimately connected
with each other that it is easy to entertain the thought of the form when
the name is recited.
What is the name that you are thinking of in your mind? Take the name of
anything which you consider as most valuable for you: your Ishta, your
Beloved, your Ishta Devata. Everybody has some beloved; it is this, it
is that, it is something material, something psychic, something literary
or something spiritual. This is the principle of mantra japa, as it is
called. A formula that you go on reciting and the name that you take constantly
is the japa thereof. This will help in keeping in your memory the thought
of that which you want to remember, and meditation will become very easy.
In the Bhagavadgita it is said that japa is the best of spiritual sacrifices:
yajnanam japa-yajno'smi (Gita 10.25). I myself feel that nothing is equal
to japa. Go on reciting the same thing, with the mind thinking of only
that. "God, God, God, God, God" - even that much is good enough. Let God
be anything, but the idea itself is good. "God Almighty, God Almighty,
God Almighty" - go on saying that; this is also a kind of mantra. You can
create a mantra for yourself. "God, I want you! God Almighty, I want you!
God Almighty, I want you! I want nothing else! God Almighty, I want you!"
This is a mantra that I have created for you. It will have such a force
upon you, such a force upon your mind that you will not think anything
else. It will bombard your mind. "Oh, God Almighty! Oh, God Almighty! Wonderful!
Wonderful! How glorious! How glorious! How glorious! I want Him!" This
is a mantra. Go ahead like this, gradually, slowly, blessed people. God
bless you!
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