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The object
of meditation is not just one among the many objects of the world; it is
rather the 'only' object before us. Only when the object is considered
as 'all-in-all', capable of bestowing upon us everything that we need,
can it satisfy us fully. A partial truth is no reliable truth. A partial
object is not a complete object; a one-fourth human being is not a human
being. We do not want 'something' in the world; our basic longing is to
have everything. Even if 25 percent of the things in the world are to become
our possessions, the 75 percent which has gone out of our control will
harass us and cause anguish in our mind: "Why should I not have the other
75 percent also?" If you are the king of the whole earth, you would like
to conquer even the skies: "Why should the skies be there without my concern?
I shall control even the stars." Such is desire.
The objective,
therefore, is not some particular thing - it is everything. Since the chosen
object in meditation, somehow, appears to be one among the many possibilities
of a similar choice, the mind may hesitate to concentrate even on that
object: "Why do you want me to think of this particular thing when I can
have other things also which are equally good, perhaps more satisfying?
Why should I drudge in an office with a given amount of salary when it
is also possible for me to have a higher salary in another office?" The
mind will force this question of why this so-called thing is your concern
in meditation: "Is there nothing else in the world except this? What do
you say?" asks the mind.
Here is the
difficulty which is a psychological problem based on a philosophical profundity.
It is not possible to concentrate on all things at once. We do not know
how many things there are in this world. How will anyone mentally count
these objects and bring them all together into a heap so that one may focus
one's attention on them? Even if we are able to conceive the total of all
the objects in the world, we would be omitting certain things unknowingly.
It is impossible for one to be omniscient, and even the total of the world
will exclude something which is outside the world.
Then what
should be our attitude towards the object of meditation? How are we going
to choose the object? There are two answers to this question. Philosophically,
scientifically, rationally, anything is as good as anything else in the
world. If one can visualise the object in the light of the discussions
we had for the last two days, nothing would look unimportant, and nothing
more important than the other. It is so because every part of the world
is connected integrally to every other part forming a living whole. The
little brick which goes to make your house is internally connected in an
unknown manner with the stars in the heavens. Only an advanced investigation
will be able to appreciate this truth of how a tinsel on earth can be regarded
as having a relationship with a luminary in the heavens.
If all things
cannot be conceived simultaneously in their internal relations, one can
choose as the object what one likes best, loves most, what delights one's
heart at the very sight of it. Now, what is it that can delight your heart?
Here you will not be able to give an answer to your own self. You will
be finding yourself in a position similar to the fox in Aesop's Fables
which knew a hundred tricks to escape from the hounds of a hunter, but
when the actual difficulty arose, it did not know which trick to choose
as the best, and the hounds fell on it. Such a situation should not arise.
Is there anything in your life which will delight your heart wholly, entirely,
always? Someone may say: "My only child delights me - the only son which
I have got after a lot of tapasya, prayer, and blessings from mahatmas.
I think of it day in and day out, the little child with which God has blessed
me. The sight of the child delights my heart. This is my heart's love."
But can anyone love anything equally under every circumstance in life?
Kinds of Love
There are
five kinds of love, which are described in detail in the Bhakti
Shastras, scriptures on divine devotion. One kind of love is the
love that a parent has for a child. The father or mother clings to the
child, especially if the child is a single one, an only son. The parents
go on brooding over the little child. Parental affection for children is
one kind of love which can be seen everywhere in every family, so forcefully
operating. Another kind of love is one's affection for one's parents. You
love your father and mother in a manner different from the love you have
for the child. Though both are loves, they are manifest in a different
way. Your love for the parent is qualitatively and in texture different
from your love for a child. Love for the parent involves affection together
with respect and adoration, apart from what causes clinging to one's children.
There is a
third kind of love which a friend has for the friend. Chums, alter-egos,
always sitting together, dining together, speaking, working, going for
a walk together, cannot separate themselves. They are thick doubles in
every sense of the word. The friend has an inseparable love for the other
as friend: the two are equals. The love that one has for one's own equal
distinguishes itself from other forms of affection in a marked way. There
is a fourth kind of love which a servant has for his master. There are
obedient, very reliable servants, even in this world of corruption, who
love their master till his death. I have seen one such servant of a judiciary
in a high court. Even till the death of that judge years after retirement,
that servant was with him, serving him in the same way as earlier. It was
not the judge he was loving, he loved the person: "He might have been a
judge; now he is a retired somebody. It does not matter. I love him. He
is my master, teacher, protector, superior. I love him." The love that
one has for one's superior, call him your master or guru, is a love which
differs from the other types mentioned before.
There is,
then, another kind of love which a wife has for the husband and the husband
has for the wife. This phenomenon is considered as the apex of all loves.
This love is totally different in characteristic, intensity and significance
from all the other types of love in a variety of ways.
These are
the five bhavas or feelings of emotional ardour towards an object,
to which we feel attached strongly. The loves cannot leave us until our
skin itself goes and the bone breaks. Even if we are to think of the Almighty
Lord Himself as our great object of devotion and love, we will not be able
to think of Him in any other manner than in terms of one of these emotions,
these feelings.
Wholeness in Concentration
For the last
two days we have been analysing the circumstances of life, both subjectively
in the case of ourselves, and objectively in the case of the world, through
the faculty of understanding. We exercised concentration of reason in trying
to find out where we are actually placed in this world. But there is another
faculty in us which is the feeling. Sometimes the feeling can overpower
the understanding and speak in a language totally different from the language
of logic which the understanding employs. Though the understanding tells
you that you are of this kind and the world is of that kind and you are
not as you are appearing to be on the surface, the world is also quite
different from what it appears to be, the feeling will say that things
are exactly as it sees them. One can tell a father or a mother that their
child is not really their child: It has taken many births; it had many
parents and it is passing through many incarnations; they are a caretaker
of this child for the time being only and should not be attached to it
as if they are the possessor of it; it had many parents in the past and
it will have many parents in the future also, so this is not their child.
If you say so, the reason of the parent may understand what you say, but
the feeling will say, "It is my child only. Do not talk to me in any other
style. Whatever you may say through your rationality and your scientific
outlook, I do understand well; nevertheless, my feeling says it is my child,
I love it as mine own."
Whose is this
land? Whose is this house? Are you going to live in this house for all
time to come? Tomorrow you may pass away. Why do you cling to this building,
land and property as if you are going to be there using it for all time?
Tomorrow you may quit this world. "Yes, I understand, but my feeling says
it is my house; I shall not leave it. This is my property, I shall enjoy
it."
The feeling
does not always agree with the understanding. There is a clash in our personality
between understanding and feeling, reason and emotion. When we gird up
our loins very sincerely and honestly for the purpose of resorting to spiritual
meditation, we should see that this conflict between understanding and
feeling is not there. We must develop an integrated outlook of things.
The object of meditation should satisfy us emotionally through our feeling
on the one hand, and on the other hand it should also be known carefully
as to what it is made of structurally, threadbare.
When you resort
to the object of meditation, you must also know what it is that you are
thinking of. Sometimes a sense object may delight you very much and you
may say that it is the best object and you would meditate on it. You may
ask me, "What is the harm in meditating on a sense object, as you have
already told us that the object should satisfy us and I think that my particular
object of this particular sense is satisfying me. What is the difficulty?
I shall concentrate my mind wholly on this object which satisfies my sense
organs."
Yes; in one
way you are right. Take to that particular type of concentration because
it satisfies you. But I did not say that the quality of the object of meditation
is merely one of satisfying. It should also be the 'only' object you can
think of and there is nothing else. Here is a condition which you will
not be able to fulfil easily.
Can a person
love any object forever, throughout one's life? "I have taken this as my
object of affection. Will I go on clinging to it until my death without
changing my concentration on that?" No one can make a promise in this manner.
For some reason or other, one day you will get disgusted with this so-called
affectionate object. Everyone knows what the reason is for such an eventuality.
The son can abandon the father; the father can abandon the son. The husband
can reject the wife. Anything is possible. Under conditions only do you
love things; unconditionally you cannot love anything.
Sensory pleasure
is conditioned by various factors but the object of meditation should satisfy
you unconditionally, not with an 'if so', 'but', and 'whereas'. Such clauses
should not be introduced when you take to concentration on the object of
meditation as a wholesome lifelong security and delight. The object of
meditation is not only entirely satisfying to the feeling and emotions,
but it is also not one which can cause a shifting of your attention to
something else. The chosen object is everything, for ever and ever.
Both these
conditions are difficult to fulfil. Your dearest friend cannot be your
dearest friend for all times. You cannot give a guarantee that you shall
be with him always. No relationship is permanent in this world, not even
the closest relationship of husband and wife. There are no permanent relations
anywhere. Things can separate themselves for any reason. If that is the
case, which sense object can you choose for the purpose of meditation?
There is a danger in choosing a sense object as the ideal for meditation
because it will compel you to shift your attention to something else afterwards
when you get fed up with it due to excessive intimacy, overindulgence and
the non-utility of the object after a while. We cannot even eat the same
type of meal every day. We would like a variety even in our food. What
if every day one eats the same food? One will want a little change. We
would like to have another object. People go for different things, because
no object can be a 'total' object. But it is necessary for every seeker
of truth and student of Yoga to convince himself that the object of meditation
is a 'total' object, not just 'one of the objects' in the world. Otherwise,
the mind will jump from one thing to another thing. Why should it not,
because it knows that there are other things also?
How is it
possible to regard one object as all things? Sri Krishna
in the Bhagavad Gita's eighteenth chapter mentions that there are three
kinds of appreciation, three kinds of knowledge or understanding. That
perception which makes one cling to one finite thing only as if it is the
sole object of love is the worst kind of appreciation. It is the least
knowledge that one can have of anything. But there is a higher kind of
understanding where one is able to appreciate the relationship of one thing
with another thing, organically. It is not that I am sorry only if my child
is sick; I will have a concern also if my neighbour's child is ill. I would
not like anybody to suffer. It is not that my people alone should not suffer;
nobody should suffer, since all are equally human. There is a concatenation
of things. Humanity is one mass of concentration. Our concern is not only
for our little family, not even for our little state or our nation. The
whole mankind is one family. We are members of the family of all of humanity,
the world itself. This is so because everything is connected to everything
else in the creational process of God, in the same way as every limb of
the body is connected to every other limb of the body.
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