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The practice of yoga is more than a mere
understanding of its principles, because there are many who may be able to
understand it but cannot practise it. The reason for this is the peculiar
preparation that one has to make in engaging oneself in its practice. A kind of
unique strength is necessary in the practice of yoga. It is not anyone and
everyone who can take to it with ease. Many start with enthusiasm but do not
conclude it, because of certain unforeseen difficulties that sometimes confront
them in the middle, and often in the very beginning itself. A peculiar kind of
strength is necessary for this practice. A weak mind which is susceptible to
the changing judgements of people cannot take to the practice of yoga. There
are people who go on listening to everything and believe in everything so that
they live in others’ minds and not in their own minds. Whatever they
hear, they believe. When one belief contradicts another, there is a sense of
despair and a confusion of mind.
A student of yoga should have a power of
judgement, and he should not be merely a puppet in the hands of the views and
judgements of other people. It is humility and goodness and also a kind of
wisdom to listen to everybody’s views, but it does not mean that we
should necessarily acquiesce to all of them. A judge listens to the reports of
everyone in the court, but it does not mean that he will accept as final
veracity everything that he hears. To receive views and opinions and to
consider the judgements of other people in regard to things is one of the ways
of acquiring knowledge, it is true, but knowledge is not merely a gathering of
information. It is a sifting of essentials, the sublimation of principles
involved in what is heard and learnt, and a gathering of the essence rather than
the chaff of the outer knowledge. The student of yoga should have a mind of his
or her own. We cannot afford always to live in borrowed wisdom or information
and strength gathered from others.
It is futile to think that we can always be
in the midst of others who will protect or guard us with their physical power
or their wisdom. A time will come when the student of yoga will realise that he
is alone in this world, and his aloneness is the peculiarity of the wisdom that
becomes opened before the inner eye. The truth is that we are alone. That we
are apparently in the midst of friends and associates is a kind of illusion
that has been cast over us, and this illusion will be dispersed like a cloud
when the time for it comes. We will stand alone, and then we must have the
strength to confront the realities of life.
A student of yoga is one who is ready to
face life. Life will stand in all its nakedness and in its barren reality when
relationships which were falsely associated around us get dispersed, and we awaken
to the facts of life. These are stages through which every person has to pass
if one is to take to yoga earnestly and seriously. It is not wise to think that
we shall always be in the midst of friends, that institutions will guard us,
and that there are other things that will protect us. This is a child’s
attitude towards things—that the parents will always take care of it.
This attitude cannot always hold, because truth opens itself one day or the
other, and we find ourselves alone in this world.
Before nature teaches this lesson with the
rod, it will be proper for us to learn it of our own accord with a maintenance
of our dignity. Instead of being pushed down to a place, it is better to
honourably go ourselves. Even when we are not prepared to learn, we will
nevertheless be taught the lesson. This is nature’s method. It is very
difficult to bear the way in which nature teaches lessons to us, so it is more
proper and fitting that we do it ourselves rather than do it later under
compulsion. No one can escape this law of nature, and truth shall triumph.
The truth is that we are alone in our
essentiality, and the final reaches in the passage of evolution will be a
single person’s walk. “Strait is the gate,” we must have
heard it said in the Bible. Narrow is this gate that releases us into the
beyond, and two people cannot walk together in this narrow passage. Broad is
the way of destruction, but strait is the gate to heaven. So narrow is this
gate that we cannot take an assistant, a servant or a friend with us—we
have to go alone. This is the fact and the ultimate reality of things. The
evolutionary process of nature tells us that this is the truth when it comes to
us as a kind of pain, a shock and an unexpected and unforeseen truth—but
everyone must undergo this.
The student of yoga should be a little
cautious and a little different from the common folk who learn only by
receiving kicks from the world. Yoga is a conscious attempt at participation in
the evolution of nature, instead of being driven like an ass by the compulsive
activity of nature’s evolution. To bear this truth requires a strength to
face truth as it is in its unrelatedness, and it also needs a kind of strength
which cannot be developed by acquiring the possessions of the world. This is
the foundation of yoga practice—the development of the inner toughness of
our personality where we can sleep with confidence and wake up also with
confidence. Normally, we go to bed with fear, and we wake up with anxiety. This
is hard to bear, and it is not good that this state of affairs should always
continue. Go to bed with a sober mind and a sense of attainment, and wake up
also with a sense of strength.
“From where does this strength
come?” may be the question. It is not muscular strength that we are speaking
of, for then the elephant would be the best student of yoga. It is a peculiar
kind of strength which most people lack, and this strength is different from a
robustness of the body. It is not the strength that we gain from proper
nutrition. With all this nutritional sustenance we may nevertheless be
weaklings and frightened even by the movement of a mouse. The strength which
enables us to be confident in this life is a different kind of strength, which
is more than just bodily strength. This is the essential prerequisite in the
very commencement of the practice of yoga. There is a famous saying in the
Upanishads, “This Atma cannot be attained by weaklings.”
This does not mean, as I said, physical robustness. It is an inner toughness
that we maintain by a peculiar training that we voluntarily undergo in our
lives. We may become weak for some particular reasons and these reasons have to
be avoided.
Why we become weak and feel that we are
weak is to be the subject of our analysis at the outset. What makes us feel
diffident and incompetent, to lack confidence, to feel that we cannot walk
firmly on our legs and that we expect only suffering in the future? Why should
it be like this, and what is the reason behind all this? The reason is
dissipation of life in many ways. The energy and inner strength that we are
supposed to garner in ourselves is already in us, because the strength that we
are speaking of here does not come from outside. Nobody can give us this
strength. We have been born with this strength to some extent, and we have also
been born with a joy which may afterwards take leave of us due to certain other
reasons.
The Hardening of the Ego
We have seen small children who look so
beautiful, with rounded faces and brilliant bodies. We feel a kind of affection
for children due to the harmony of the elements in the children. This harmony
gets disturbed later on due to the formation of certain characteristics in the
face and body on account of the intensification of desires and ego. The
elements which constitute the physical body in a child are distributed in a
harmonious manner, and that is why they are so attractive. In adults however
the ego hardens itself gradually and desires get channelised in particular
directions. The localisation of desires in particular objects disturbs the
harmony of the elements of the body, and our faces become ugly. We know how
badly an old man’s face droops, and it grows uglier and uglier as the
body gets more distorted and unattractive as age advances. The beauty of childhood
passes away when the ego begins to manifest itself. Ego and desire finally mean
one and the same thing. The ego is the motive force behind the channelisation
of desires. That the child has no particular desire is a very important
psychological fact. On account of their incipient state, the child’s
desires are distributed generally and not channelled particularly in any
direction. The child’s desires are general and not particular, and so
there is an undisturbed maintenance of the harmony of the elements of the body.
Wherever there is harmony, there is a sense
of freedom or happiness which the intellect cannot understand. The children are
happy. They run about skipping and jumping and do not understand the realities
of life. This ignorance itself makes them so happy. The child’s
simplicity is the reason behind its joy, the harmony of its body and even the
harmonious working of its physiological organs. Children sleep well, eat well
and digest everything, but elders often cannot eat, cannot digest and cannot sleep.
The reason is the same: there is an unequal distribution of the energies of the
body on account of localisation or channelisation of desire.
This is the beginning of the dissipation of
human energy, and the older we become, the weaker we feel in our systems.
“Oh, I cannot stand, I cannot walk, I cannot digest anything well, I do
not get sleep,” is a general complaint of many people. It is a
self-created problem, due to ignorance of the laws of life. We imagine
something to be good for us, but it turns out to be contrary to our well-being.
We try to fight with fundamental principles in the attempt to fulfil our
desires, but the facts ultimately succeed because our illusions cannot stand
before them. By hook or by crook our desires want to be fulfilled.
These ways which we generally adopt to
satisfy our desires due to the impulse of ego are not in harmony with the laws
of society or the laws of nature. Though desires are also present in the child,
they are present in seed form and are therefore as yet unmanifest. The desires
are not directed toward any particular object and are not lodged in any
particular form of the body. They are in an equally distributed, unmanifest
condition. While the symmetry of the system of the child is due to its
ignorance, a later stage may come in the lives of certain adept people where
the same symmetry can be established by a conscious adjustment to life.
This is the case with a saint or sage. He
is as lustrous, beautiful and powerful as a child, whereas the ignorant man suffers.
The scriptures of yoga tell us that rightly practised yoga produces a lustre in
the body similar to that seen in small children. A capacity to do hard work
without feeling fatigue and a capacity to have good sleep are characteristics
of a saint, and not of a worldly man. While the reasons may be quite different
for a child as compared to a saint, the consequences are the same. The harmony
that is maintained in the body of a child is due to ignorance, whereas in a
saint it is due to wisdom. But the others, who are neither children nor wise
men, are the sufferers in the world, and they constitute the majority of
mankind.
This unfortunate condition exists in most
people because of an unintelligent manipulation of desire and a foolish way of
tackling things in the world. To allow a desire to run riot is not wisdom, but
this is what most people do. Our desires run amok like wild horses which cannot
be controlled, and if horses drag a chariot crazily, we know what will
happen—it will be thrown into a ditch. The human condition is beautifully
illustrated in the Kathopanishad, and is seen as comparable to a chariot driven
by the horses of the senses. Our desires pull us in different directions, and
we are unable to know which desires should be fulfilled and which should not.
The condition worsens when we are not in a position to know how to fulfil a
desire.
Our ways of approach are wrong due to the
ignorance of the nature of things. Due to this ensnarement in desires and the
objects of the world, we run hither and thither like water which runs in
different directions when it falls off a cliff. Our energies are
psychologically dissipated due to the squandering of our strength. Even though
all people innately possess this energy, it is wasted through this process of
desire fulfilment. When there is this wasting of bodily and psychic energy due
to unnecessary activity, restlessness and anxiety of various kinds, we become
lost to our own selves. We feel a sense of weakness, not only in the body, but
also in the mind.
Weaknesses That Hinder Us
When such a weakness creeps into our
system, we cannot concentrate our minds on anything. We feel dazed, we feel
sleepy. Even if we sit in a lecture hall and listen to a discourse, we feel
sleepy because our minds cannot concentrate. We neither hear anything that has
been said, nor can we understand what has been said, because the mind builds
castles in the air, runs hither and thither, or gets torpid and sleepy. These
are signs of weakness. Oversleeping is also a kind of weakness of the body. We
constantly feel tired and feel like to go to bed. “Oh, let me lie
down.” We always feel like lying down. The feeling that we are always
tired shows that we have no strength within, and that the strength has gone
away due to maladjustment of the energy of the body.
Too much emotion, too much longing which
cannot easily be materialised, too much anxiety, and an excess of any kind of
emotion—all these drain our energy. We may have taken a very sumptuous
and nourishing meal, but upon receiving shocking news our nerves may be
agitated, and immediately we feel as weak as if we were going to die. The diet
we have taken is no support for us at that time. Shocking news which affects
the nerves creates such a psychic disturbance that the meal we have taken is of
no use. It looks as if we had eaten nothing for months, and we will feel like
sinking into the earth. Such is the power of emotion.
It is useless for a student of yoga to
think that he can have strength merely by eating well. There are people who eat
well in this world but who are not happy, and they may be very weak and rigid.
We should not imitate these people. Those who wear nice clothes, live in
spacious houses and eat well are not necessarily happy people, and these are
not going to be our examples. The path of yoga is a different way of approach
altogether, where we try to understand ourselves in relation to nature. Our
relation to nature is such that we cannot take liberties with nature. We should
not take too many liberties with nature or even with our own body. “Oh, I
cannot digest well.” Well, if this is so, then one should not eat so much
that one falls sick afterwards. Nature has a principle of its own, and while it
tolerates errors to some extent, it cannot tolerate them for a long time. God
and nature work in the same way. Their mills grind slowly, as it were, but very
finely, and we should understand this as citizens of the universe.
The energy that a student of yoga is called
upon to retain in his or her system is the predisposition to concentration of
mind. All of yoga is concentration of mind, we must remember. Whatever be the
type of yoga we may be performing, concentration of mind is necessary. It may
be a practice of asanas, it may be pranayama, it may be hatha
yoga or anything else, but if the mind is not there, it is not going to help
us. Even in a simple posture like the savasana (corpse pose), at which
we may laugh when it is being called an asana—it is the most
difficult asana to perform, because due to agitation we may not be able
to properly perform savasana, even though we may be able to stand on our
heads.
Concentration of mind properly done relaxes
the mind, but to be relaxed is a most difficult thing. Concentration is the
same as relaxation; however, it is not an exercise of the will. Many students
of yoga think that concentration is a tremendous effort of will, where we have
to put pressure on our nerves, as if we were walking on the edge of a sword. It
is not so. Concentration of mind is at the same time ease of the mind. At any
level of the practice of yoga, even in the first rudimentary level, what we are
called upon to achieve is ease in the system and not concentration in the sense
of undue pressure exerted on any part of the system.
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