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Gaganam gaganakaram sagarah sagaropamah;
rama ravanayor yuddham rama ravanayoriva: "How was the battle
between Rama and Ravana?" someone asked. What is the comparison? The
sky is like sky, the ocean is like ocean. Rama and Ravana's battle was
like the battle between Rama and Ravana. You cannot compare it with anything
else because they were incomparable occurrences.
So if you ask me, "How does
the Atman look?" the answer is that it looks like the Atman only. And
if you have any means of contacting the Atman, there is nothing in this world
which can be an adequate medium of contacting it - not this body, not this
dream self, not the sleeping self, also, as Prajapati has already indicated.
Whatever you experience in the waking condition - the entire universe of
physical perception - is insufficient for the contact of the Self. And all
that you see in dream and sleep, of course, are good for nothing. And inasmuch
as we have nothing here except these three states which you consider as useless,
non-utilitarian and inadequate, what other means can you adopt in the knowledge
of the Self? No answer can easily come to this question.
The Self alone can contact the Self. Ascaryavat
pasyati kascid enam ascaryavad vadati tathaiva canyah; ascaryavac-cainam
anyah srnoti srutvapy-enam veda na caiva kascit: A wonder is this great
subject that you are discussing. A wonder is the person who can really
expound it. A wonder indeed is the person who can actually understand what
is being told. Wonderful indeed is the method adopted in the exposition
of it. But in spite of this wonder which is the nature of the Self, even
after hearing it a hundred times, nobody understands what actually it is.
How could you understand, inasmuch
as understanding is a function of the intellect, and the intellect is a function
that is operative, characteristic, only of the waking condition? The highest
faculty available to the human being is intelligence which is manifest through
the intellect, or the buddhi, or the reason, as we call it. But it
comes under everything that is within the jurisdiction of the waking state.
If all that is in the waking condition is not to be considered as a proper
means of contacting the Self, then your understanding which is logical, intellectual,
rational, also is of no utility here. All knowledge which is academic in
nature, scriptural, linguistic, verbal, and grammatical, will not be of any
use here.
The Atman is known by the Atman
only. When you sink into the Atman, then you behold the Atman. What is the
meaning of sinking into the Atman? And who is going to sink into the Atman?
Is the body going to sink into it? No. The body cannot sink into the Self
because the body is a perishable, material component. Neither can the mind,
because that also is a rarefied form of matter only, nor the sleeping condition,
for obvious reasons. The Self has to sink into the Self. The Self has to
know the Self. This "you" so called, the sadhaka, the spiritual
seeker, the practitioner of Yoga, the devotee, whoever that person is, is
actually the Self, and not this body or even the mentation or the process
of thinking.
Questions arise one after the other, "How?" This
is a fantastic situation that is apparently before us. There is no go except
to realise it. But there is no go also in the way of our adapting ourselves
to the situation by which we can know it. The answer is self-control - tapas. Tapas is
the way of the contact of the Self by the Self. This consciousness which
is the nature of the Self pervades all things. Because of the pervasion of
this consciousness through this body, we are feeling that we are the body.
We feel that we are existing as this body. This consciousness of the body
existing is actually attributable to the consciousness pervading it. If the
consciousness is abstracted from the body, it will become a corpse. So, the
feeling of the existence of the body is not actually a quality of the body;
it is a quality of the Self, which is consciousness. But, inasmuch as it
has got identified with the cellular structure of the physical body, it looks
as if the body is the Self.
Suppose a long iron rod is heated
until it becomes white with heat. If you touch it, it will burn your fingers.
Are you touching the fire, or are you touching the iron rod? You may say,
"I am touching the hot iron rod," but the iron rod did not burn you.
The quality of the iron rod, which was heat, was responsible for the burning
sensation.
In a similar manner, this body has
become red-hot, as it were, with the pervasion of consciousness, and that
is why we feel that we are full of sensation and awareness. Every part of
the body is charged with consciousness. If the body had the character of
consciousness by itself, even a dead body should be aware. Why is the corpse
not conscious? If you are to imagine for the time being, as behaviourist
psychology or materialism will say, "The body itself can manufacture
or exude consciousness," why should it not do that when it is dead?
This phenomenon you call death teaches us a very good lesson - namely, that
the sensation of consciousness in the body is not a quality of the body.
It is another thing altogether which is extracted out of it at the time of
death.
Similar is the consciousness of
thought. We say we are thinking intelligently. Thinking is a process which
is charged with a consciousness other than itself. The process of thinking
itself is not consciousness, in the same way as the physical embodiment is
not consciousness. So is the case with the deep sleep. In the state of deep
sleep, there is no consciousness, practically. But the subsequent memory
that you entertain or you maintain of having slept the previous day is an
indication of the fact that consciousness was there even in the state of
deep sleep, but shrouded in ignorance.
Then, what is the outcome of this
analysis? Consciousness is present in the waking and the dreaming and the
deep sleep states, but it is none of these. Fire is present in a red-hot
iron bar; fire is present in a burning fuel; fire is present in anything
that is hot and burning. But it is none of these which are the media through
which it is burning. If a lamp is burning through a wick, the wick is not
the lamp. The flame is quite different from the wick.
In a similar manner, we have to
adopt a means of extracting this consciousness from its involvement in all
particulars, firstly by detachment from all things which attract us or repel
us. The attractions and repulsions cause loves and hatreds, emotionally.
Your likes and dislikes for one reason or the other are consequences of the
attractions and the repulsions engendered by the nature of objects contacted
by the sense organs.
It is essential to arrange the pattern
of our thinking in such a way that we centre it in itself, so that thought
thinks itself rather than it thinks something outside. As philosophers tell
us: thought thinking itself is God; thought thinking other than what it is,
is man.
Thought has to think itself; consciousness
has to be deposited in itself, as it were, and it has not got to be deposited
in the physical body or the objects outside. When you are awake, generally,
you are thinking of something outside, only.
Now, inasmuch as outside-ness is
not a quality of consciousness (its nature is universality and subjectivity,
pure perception and not perceptible objects), think the thought but do not
think that which the thought is thinking. Withdraw the consciousness from
the object on which it is contemplating and sink it down through the body,
through the mind, through the causal state, into itself. Or rather, to put
it more symbolically, feel intensely that you are thinking Yourself - but
not thinking yourself as a physical body. This difficulty also should be
avoided as much as possible. This Yourself, so called, has a big capital "Y" and
not a little "y." The Self is not anything other than what
it is; therefore, it cannot be any one of the objects. It is just what it
is. It is a pure subject, but it is a subject that is indivisible.
King Ashvapati Kaikeya mentioned
to the six great learned men that the mistake that they have committed in
the contemplation of the Self, the Atman, was that, first of all, they thought
it is outside; and secondly, they thought that it is in one place only.
Now, can you imagine yourself to
be in such a position where you are neither outside, nor in one place? This
is a kind of circus feat of consciousness by which it is possible to withdraw
the sensations through a process called abstraction, or pratyahara, in
Yoga practice, and it settles in itself.
It is not easily done because of
the habituation of consciousness to think only of external things in space
and time. But, by an analysis of your own experiences in waking, dream and
sleep, you can go deep into your own Self - "I am not this physical
body because of the location of the body in one place, and the objectivity
of it on the other side." Ashvapati Kaikeya's instruction was that consciousness
is not located in one place and it is not also something that can be seen
with the eyes. This body can be seen with the eyes and, therefore, it is
one of the material objects. This body is one of the material substances
in the world; therefore, it is an objective something. Therefore, the error
pointed out by King Ashvapati is applicable to the perception of the physical
body, also. And it is, on the other hand, also located in one place. This
body cannot be everywhere.
Anything that is in one place only
and not everywhere and also which is perceptible by the eyes cannot be regarded
as the Self. So, you are not this body. This is very clear. Then what else
are you? Are you the thought? The mind? No. What does the mind think? The
mind also thinks something that is outside itself. Otherwise, what else is
the content of thought?
You brood over things which are
not you and, therefore, the thought process also is objective. Inasmuch as
it is externally placed, the mind also is not the Self. And inasmuch as it
is thinking only localised things, it commits the other mistake of locality.
The mind also is not the Self, for the same reason why the physical body
is not the Self. The body is not the Self for the two defects involved in
it; for the same defects, the mind also is not the Self.
What else? The same difficulty arises
which was pursued by Indra: is the deep sleep the Atman? No, because it is
a negation of all values. The Atman is omniscient, all-knowing, present everywhere
and conscious that it is present everywhere. It is not enough if you have
wealth. It is necessary also that you know that you have wealth. Unconscious
possession is no possession. So, it is an existence which is indivisible,
non-objective, but conscious. This feat of contemplative process has to be
achieved by every one of us in our meditations. This would be really meditation
on the Atman.
Ashvapati Kaikeya, the great king,
concludes his instruction to the seeking masters, saying, Whoever is capable
of adjusting the consciousness in such a way that it can be considered as
pervading all things, and yet be the Self and the deepest seer in the contemplator,
attains the blessedness of eternity, infinity, immortality. The Truth
is the Selfhood of Universality.
You need not have to enjoy things
through the mouth, through your sensations. You will be enjoying all things
through everything, everywhere, through all people in the whole universe
because of your identification of the consciousness with all things in the
world. "I am whatever I perceive."
When you see something, feel your
presence in it. If you see a sparrow pecking grains, feel that you are pecking
the grains, not the sparrow. If you see the light burning, you are burning
there. If you see a pillar here, you are standing here. There is no pillar;
I am standing here. If you see a tree in front of you, you are there. If
the river is flowing, you are flowing. If the sun is shining, you are shining.
If the space is vast, you are vast. If the ocean is turbulent, you are turbulent.
Can you identify your consciousness in this manner? This is to put succinctly
the instruction of Ashvapati Kaikeya whereby, success being achieved, one
enjoys life in all beings, in all the fourteen worlds, and in every self
of every little thing in the universe.
What will happen to that person
who achieves this great goal? The world will fall at his feet. Generally,
we fall at the feet of the world. We go and beg; everybody is doing like
this. The world will come and beg and fall at your feet. Whoever performs
this great sacrifice of the self in the Cosmic Self, which is known as agnihotra in
the Upanishad, becomes like a mother to all creation. As hungry children
sit round the mother asking for their daily meal, their breakfast, their
lunch and dinner, saying, "Mother, give us food," - so will the
whole world sit around this person and ask for his blessing. He becomes the
parent of the universe, the centre of all creation - whoever knows this Self.
Such is the intricacy behind the
teaching of Prajapati, the Creator, which was imparted to Indra, and the
subtle secret behind the wonderful Vaishvanara Vidya instruction given by
King Ashvapati Kaikeya to the great masters who went to him for instruction.
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