Darshan of Swami Krishnananda in 1998

by Swami Krishnananda

47. A Superior Kind of Meditation

(Darshan given on December 6th, 1998)

Swamiji: Do you meditate?

A visitor: Yes, Swamiji.

Swamiji: In what form are you meditating? In what way? When you sit for meditation, what happens to your mind?

Visitor: I concentrate on the more impersonal aspect. I don't have any...

Swamiji: When you think the impersonal, you are thinking the limitless.

Visitor: Yes, Swamiji.

Swamiji: At that time, what happens to you sitting in meditation?

Visitor: Well, when I sit somewhat, my personality, or what I regard as my [unclear], diminishes.

Swamiji: Let it meditate on you instead of... Why are you meditating on That? You, with your force of will, make That think of you. It will shower, like a rain of blessing. Devotees say: “Why should I think of God? Let God think of me. Why should He not think of me? Doesn't He want me? Why should I go and beg? Let Him come and want me.”

This kind of devotion is called superior, greater – greater than any conceivable thing. Wanting God is a minor devotion. When God wants you, what do you call it? Can anybody imagine the nature of that? People want God. That is devotion. But if God wants you, what do you call it? Is it also a devotion? It is a superb, inexplicable ecstasy, and the height of achievement, I can say. “Oh, God wants me!” You feel like that. You will simply melt away into liquid in one minute.

If God wants you, there is no need of meditating also. Oh, God wants me! Immediately you will melt. What is the use of wanting God? Anybody can want Him, but That must want you. Turn the tables around. Knowing God, you will simply dance in ecstasy: The Infinite is wanting me! Can anybody imagine? Always people want the Infinite, but now it is not the case. The Infinite is wanting me. It wants to absorb me into it. Oh, you will shudder by the thought of it.

This is a new kind of meditation I am telling you, not the other thing. Anybody can sit and meditate, but a poor thing it is. Now I am telling you something marvellous – not you thinking God, but He thinks you. It is very difficult to imagine all this. What is the use of thinking God? Let Him think you. Is it possible? Can you draw Him? What do you say? You are doubting. Why should you doubt?

Another visitor: I don't know because, Swamiji, what you have said is correct. If we think of Him, definitely He will think of us also.

Swamiji: If the river goes to the ocean, it is one thing, but if the whole ocean goes to the river, what happens? This is another very interesting thing. Let the ocean enter the river, and let us see what happens to the river. Then it won't yearn for the ocean. That is true spirituality. Why should you ask for somebody else? That somebody must think of me. Why do you want the object? Let the object think of me. The object will crave for me, instead of my craving for the object. This is another kind of spirituality. It is unthinkable. I will not think anything. Let that thing come, and it will come.

This is a superior kind of meditation. I don't know if anybody has told you this. The Infinite should want you. Then you will see what happens to your feelings. You will simply shudder, like this. You will feel: The Infinite is wanting me, the Infinite is wanting me. Finished, you will cease to exist in That, in one minute.

This meditation, if it can be carried on for a long time, will free you from rebirth. I am speaking to you a gospel.

Another visitor: Can it happen by itself, Swamiji? Or can you, by your willpower can you...?

Swamiji: Your willpower ceases to exist there. It has taken a new shape altogether. It has become a blaze. It is not individual willpower. You have ceased to exist. There is no you also. There is no word in language to express what is happening. It has entered you, that's all. Then, at that time, who will think anything? It has taken possession of you. Then what fear have you got? You will not be there at all even to say that. That is real meditation.

Second visitor: We will see the Viratrupa, what you call that...

Swamiji: Virat – it is something... Okay, you can call it Virat, yes. The all-engulfing Reality has taken possession of you. If millions of policemen are protecting you from all sides, it is something more than that. Wherever you go, millions of policemen are there around you, to guard you. Your fear goes away at that time. But this is the whole universe guarding you, all the quarters of heaven. The Yoga Vasishtha says that all the quarters of heaven will pay homage to you. They will fall at your feet, the whole universe. Tasya lokaḥ sa u loka eva, says the Upanishad: The whole universe is your property. Not only your property, you are that. Shudder, ecstasy, melting down: Oh, oh, oh, oh! That's why in the Upanishads, the great sages say, “Oh, oh, oh, oh.” They will make sound like that: au, au, au, au. There is no other way of explaining that. Dictionary words are of no use. Only they can say, “Au, au, au, au, au.”

Accha. God bless you. Hari Om. Om Namo Narayana.