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| Part I: The Samadhi Pada |
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| Chapter
19: Returning to Pure Subjectivity |
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What actually happens when the
mind cognises an object, is not, again, a matter of easy comprehension. A
sudden miraculous trick, as it were, takes place when there is a mental
cognition, and we are suddenly tripped from our balance and caught in a
condition which escapes notice and eludes understanding. The cognition of an
object is a miracle by itself. It is a wonder, and therefore it is not easy to
comprehend. The peculiar structure, called the mind, envelopes the shape of the
object, which is what is called 'vyapti' in Sanskrit. Various examples
are given to explain what sort of enveloping takes place. It is said that as
molten lead cast into a crucible may take the shape of the crucible, or water
flowing into a field may take the shape of the field - circular, or
rectangular, or square, or whatever the shape the field is - the mind takes the
shape of the object; and something else happens, at the same time, which is the
cause of our bondage.
The mind does not merely stop
with this act of enveloping the object. It drags our consciousness with it -
just as when the wife goes, the husband also goes. This is a danger in all
mental cognitions. If the wife starts quarrelling with somebody, the husband
runs and adds to the quarrel, which makes it much worse; this is what happens.
So if the mind merely envelopes the object, so much the worse for us; but
something still more undesirable takes place, which is that the consciousness
is pulled, together with this rush of the mind, towards the object, and then it
is not merely the mind that is there in the object - 'we' are there in the
object. I am there in the object - finished. My doom has come
immediately.
When I run from myself and sit
on the object outside, one can imagine my condition. I forget myself, lose
myself, snatch myself away from myself and completely destroy my subjectivity,
my self-identity, my very existence. I sell myself to the object, so that I
have abolished myself like a slave surrendering himself to the master under
utter abnegation. The subject has become the object. This is an extreme form of
clinging to objects. Why does a subject cling to the object? The subject has
lost itself completely - lost its very life. It does not anymore exist there.
It has transferred its location to that of the object. It is sitting in the
object and has become the object. It has taken the shape of the object and
identified itself with the object; its existence is the existence of the object,
and it thinks through the object. The subject is now finished. This is the last
consummatory condition to which the mind takes us in the cognition of
objects.
This result does not come about
at once - there are stages to this process. The extent of absorption of the
subject into the object depends upon the extent of the meaning that the subject
reads into the object, the extent of the value that the subject sees in the
object, and the extent of the need that one feels for the object. According to
the degree of the value that is recognised in the object, to that degree one
transfers oneself to that object. There are degrees of affection - all
affections are not same. One may have a little love, or a little more love, or
intense love, or complete self-abnegating love. In very rare cases, the
ultimate stage comes. But mostly it is only some percentage of love. We have a
love for our children, we have a love for our dog or cat, and so on and so
forth - but all loves are not the same. They have various degrees according to
the meaning that we find in them, the value that is there and the significance
that we can read into their very existence in respect of our personal
necessities.
But now we are considering
merely the psychological processes of perception. The subject which is supposed
to transfer itself to the object is not merely a process of thinking. When I
say the mind transfers itself to the object by an act of enveloping, it does
not mean that merely a thought process in the ordinary sense takes place, because
the subject - the cognising individual - is not merely thought, but is also
will and emotion. Thinking, feeling and willing - these three are the primary
functions of the psychological organ. So in cognition it is not merely the
thinking aspect that functions. Though thinking is perhaps the first aspect
that rouses itself into activity in cognition, emotion follows.
It is very difficult to
withdraw emotions from acts of cognition. In some cognitions, emotions are not
involved very much. Just as when we see a rock on the bank of the Ganga, there
is a mental cognition based on sensory perception of that rock on the bank of
the river, but as a rock does not mean much to us - whether it is there or it
is not there, it is not of great significance to our life - our emotions do not
run to that rock. But if it is a rock of gold, or a diamond, then the emotions
will go to it. "Oh, it is a diamond rock." We will not withdraw our eyes from
the rock; we will go on looking at it because a tremendous meaning has been
seen in this rock. But ordinary rocks do not mean anything as we have seen so
many rocks.
But the control of the mind,
which is the primary function in yoga, is also a direct step taken in the
restraint of emotion and will, together with thinking, because while thinking
is the beginning of attachment - the identification of the subject with the
object - the will and the emotion get the upper hand subsequently and reinforce
this act of cognition and make it impossible for the individual to extricate itself
from the identification it has established with the object. We cannot
ordinarily understand to what extent we are attached to objects, because we are
shifting the position of attachment from one object to another, every day,
according to circumstances. We do not stick to any particular object from
morning to evening. That is not possible, because we do not find it necessary.
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There are many factors
necessary to maintain our individuality in life - a single object is not
adequate. So the mind, in its intelligent manoeuvres, shifts itself suddenly,
like a shuttle, from one centre to another, and keeps itself in contact with
all the necessary factors in life which are essential for its existence and
security, just like a good politician who shrewdly maintains contact with all
the people concerned with his security, position, etc. He can contact even a
thousand people in a day if the necessity arises - by phone, by telegram, by
letter, by personal interview, etc. - because he knows that these contacts are
necessary for his security and status. Likewise, the mind - the greatest of
politicians conceivable in the world - plays the very same trick and sees that
its security is maintained throughout life, and that nobody threatens its
existence. The act of mental cognition is nothing but a continuous activity
engaged in by the mind for maintaining its security in life. Otherwise, what is
the use of perceiving things? Why do we want to see objects? Why do we want to
contact people in the world? Why do we want friends? Why do we want telephones?
It is only for security, maintenance and status, so that we may not be cut off
from the ground on which we are standing. This is what the mind is doing in
every act of cognition.
This is a bare outline of the
psychological process involved in perception, but it is a process which
completely enslaves us into conditions which go beyond our control. We can
imagine the state of affairs in which a bonded slave lives. Nowadays we do not
have slaves of the kind that we have heard of in ancient history. The slaves
were sold not only financially and physically, but even emotionally and in
every aspect that constituted their personality. A slave is one who has no
individuality or personality of his own. He has become part and parcel of the
master to whom he has been sold. His existence, his will, his thought, his
feeling, his very security and life itself is in the hands of the master. So is
the case with an individual selling itself to the object. The object controls
us, and one is a slave of that object.
One cannot know that one is a
slave. In the case of mental attachments, the situation is a little different
from a human slave selling himself to a master. The slave in the ordinary case
may be aware that he has bound himself to a master who is controlling him in
every way, so he may feel very unhappy sometimes. "Oh, what a condition is
mine. I am serving under this master and he may even end my life due to the
subjection into which I have entered with him." But in our case of slavery to
objects, something worse is taking place. We cannot be aware that we are
slaves. We are not sorry that we are attached to objects. We are immensely
happy because of the attachment. Otherwise, how can there be attachment if we
are always conscious of the sorrow that is involved in it? The attachment
becomes a source of happiness. It is not a source of sorrow, as in the case of
the ordinary slave or subordinate. It is a source of happiness because
something very strange has taken place in the cognition of the object, which is
the cause of this joy.
Something inscrutable is taking
place. The mind feels the need, which is the need that the whole personality
feels. Why is the need felt? It is a little difficult to understand merely by
surface thinking. The need is biological, sociological, psychological,
economical, and every blessed thing. When we are attached to something, we are
not attached merely for one single reason. Many factors pull us to the object,
and all these factors act simultaneously, like enemies attacking from all
sides, so that we may not know what is happening to us. We become helpless and
then surrender ourselves. Similarly, the subject surrenders itself to the
object on account of the attack to which it is subjected by umpteen factors
from all sides - social, physical, economical, psychological, emotional,
volitional, and whatnot.
The need that we feel in our
personality is multi-faceted. This is what keeps us unhappy throughout the day,
and to remove this unhappiness we cling to objects. We feel social insecurity,
physical deficiency, emotional inadequacy and psychological inferiority - all
of which cannot be set right at one stroke by a single object. It is difficult
to find a single object which will fulfil all our needs - economical,
sociological, physical, biological, etc. All these needs cannot be
fulfilled by a single object - such a thing is difficult to find. There may be
such a thing, but it is not always easy to find. So we cling to many aspects of
objectivity for the fulfilment of various types of need we feel in our
personality. We want social status; we want the recognition of people; we want
a lot of money; we want a wife or husband; we want a very delicious dish to eat
every day; we want a nice bed; we want security by army, police and friends,
etc. so that nobody can attack us. We want medicines to cure us of illnesses.
What untold things we require to keep us happy and secure in life! For this
reason the mind keeps us distracted. It shifts itself from one thing to another
thing to find out what it lacks and where it can find what it needs.
Occasionally the mind gets
caught up by the preponderance of a type of need, to the exclusion of others.
That is what is called a mania or an intense form of emotional clinging, which
rarely takes place in people, but is not unseen. It can be the state of affairs
of any person under certain conditions where exclusive attachment is possible,
closing one's eyes to all other aspects of one's existence. When we are about
to be elected into a very high post and we are working day and night, sweating,
and moving earth and heaven for this purpose, we may have an exclusive
concentration on that aspect of our life, oblivious of every other factor. We
may not eat - hunger also vanishes at such times. Though at other times we may
think very much about the food that we want to eat, during the election period
we will not eat food. The appetite has gone because there is a shifting of
emphasis on some other aspect. Also, normally we sleep because sleep is a
necessity, but during the time of elections - no sleep. There is no food and
there is no other biological attachment that is usually present in family life
or social life. It is not cut off, but it is completely suppressed by the
preponderance of an urge which has taken the upper hand at that particular
moment or period. Or, when we are in an army, in a battlefield, where we are
worked up into a feeling of intense emotion - do or die - we find that all
other needs are suppressed, and a particular aspect of our mind gains the upper
hand and directs us along a single channel.
In the practice of yoga we have
to place ourselves in a practical condition by conscious analysis, and subject
ourselves to diagnosis and treatment, deliberately and voluntarily, for the
purpose of freeing ourselves from the chances of getting caught by these
conditions in future, sometime or the other. Self-analysis is something like a
vaccination, where we produce an artificial disease in our personality in order
to get rid of the impending destructive disease which may threaten us. Though
we may not be in a state of attachment just now, we become conscious of the
possibility of such attachments in the future, because no one can be completely
immune to attachments of any type. Any attachment can come to any person at any
time, only if circumstances are favourable. So we should not say we are free
from such these things. Nobody can be free.
That we are free from certain
attachments is only because of the fact that we have laid emphasis on certain
other factors, for other reasons, which does not mean that the enemy is not
lying in ambush even though he is not visible now. Anything can happen at any
time to any person - we should not forget this. So we have to be cautious of these
possibilities and then rouse the potentialities of the mind in this connection,
up from the unconscious level to the subconscious, and then bring it to the
conscious level of direct attack and frontal investigation. This is
self-analysis.
To revert to the point I
mentioned earlier, in the act of mental cognition the mind takes the shape of
the object and drags the consciousness towards it. In technical Sanskrit
language these are called vritti vyapti and phala vyapti. Vritti
vyapti is the mind enveloping the object and taking the shape of the object
- the molten metal getting cast into the crucible of the structure of the
object. To become conscious of it is to be in the state of phala vyapti,
as they call it. So there is a dual role played in acts of perception and
cognition - psychological and conscious - and they are inseparable.
The mind cannot be isolated
from the consciousness that is animating it, just as when a mirror is kept in
the blazing sun, it may itself become invisible. A glass that is in the sun
cannot be seen because of the light of the sun that is shining through every
particle of glass. The whole glass or mirror is radiant with the blazing light
of the sun, and therefore we see only a glare and we cannot see the mirror.
Though it is there it cannot be seen, because light has enveloped every
particle of that matter. Likewise, we cannot know that some peculiar
perceptional involvement is taking place, on account of consciousness
enveloping every fibre of thinking. We may say the mind is something like a
mirror. Sometimes we may call it is a prism. Sometimes we may call it a plain
glass, or it may be called a stained glass through which consciousness passes
like light and takes various shapes. Inasmuch as consciousness envelops the
total structure of the mind in acts of mental activity, we cannot isolate
ourselves from perceptional processes - we become the process. We become the
process, and we become the object towards which the process is directed, and
then we are the object.
Samsara is the subject becoming the object, and
moksha is the object becoming subject, to put it very plainly. When we
become the object, we are a samsarin. When the object has become us, we
are liberated. They are simple things to explain and say but most difficult
things to swallow, because the mind is not an object of perception, as we have
been noticing in our earlier analysis. It cannot be studied in the usual
manner, because here we are studying our own self, and so every act of
self-control or mental-control involves subjugation of oneself by oneself. Atma
vinigrah is another word which is very aptly used in this connection. One
controls the self, which means oneself as one is at present, by the
introduction of the principles governing the higher values of life or the
higher nature of the self. The higher self includes the immediate vicinity of
objectivity which usually the individual self regards as external to it; and
every stage of rise to the higher degree of self is also a rise to a greater
inclusiveness of objectivity in subjectivity, so that in every higher stage the
subject becomes larger in its comprehension, and the objectivity gets lessened.
The more we rise higher, the less is the objectivity involved in awareness, and
the greater is the subjectivity.
In the final
consummation, which is the goal of
life, there is only subject, and no
object. All the objects are drawn into
the subject, in the largest
comprehensiveness of the subject. That Supreme Subjectivity, which is
All-Comprehensiveness, in which every object is subsumed, is Ishvara or
God.
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